Archive for February, 2009



February 23, 2009

Uno. Just me. Table for one please. No I don’t go out to eat alone but it sounded good. Friday and Saturdy night alone. So with the dreaded February 14th and a recent relationship ending I got lonely. It happens from time to time. Today at church, I had an awesome conversation with a great Christian brother of mine. He lifted me up and reset my perspective. Basically focus on God and things will work out. God revealed to me today that what I thought of as relationship failures was just him protecting me. I don’t need to give away pieces of me to the wrong guy. Below is a good quote from a guy named Lee McDerment. I love it!!

When you are single…    YOU ARE NOT SHOPPING, YOU ARE IN THE SHOP…You are not out looking for a perfect match…Its not about upgrading or trading in…It’s about realizing that YOU AND I ARE THE ONES IN NEED OF AN OVERHAUL… 

He went on to say something like, Most likely the reason you are single is because God’s not satisfied with your current state.  He needs to see you at another level or in another place before he places the responsibility of stewarding an amazing relationship that honors HIM.

So I say bring it God. Lord work in me, use this time to make me better and closer to you.


Good Reads

February 18, 2009

So one of my goals for the year was to read 52 books. I a week to be exact this year. So I have been getting my read on. I don’t watch alot of TV anyway but it has become less. So far I have read

1. Change of Heart by Jodi Picoult

2. The Pact by Jodi Picoult

3. Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult

4. Perfect Match by Jodi Picoult

5. In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day by Mark Batterson

6. Keeping Faith by Jodi Picoult (checked out from library next to read)

7. When the Brain Can’t Hear by Teri James Belis PhD (on the list to read)

8. And a few James Patterson books soon

9. Mans Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl (on the list)

I am off to read 🙂  I may do a post on the book In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day.


25 Random

February 11, 2009

25 Random Things About Me. So this has been going around on Facebook and I refused to do it. But I decided to let those special people who read my blog know 25 random things about me. Oh boy!!

1. I am a RN. I love cardiology and one day want to be a hospice nurse.

2. I have such a thing called “Eye Brow Wednesday”. Every Wednesday I do my eyebrows, the major work.

3. I am an organ donor. Kill me off if you have to just take my organs PLEASE!!!!!!

4. I enjoy yoga!

5. My mom calls me sweetpea.

6. I want to get out of debt like crazy and will debt free by December 2009.

7. I would love to also teach nursing and get a masters but don’t want to go back to school yet.

8. Old people are my speciality. The confused the better.

9. My first job was at 14 bagging groceries at Winn Dixie.

10. I have been to LA and seen Bob Barker and The Price Is Right!!!!

11. I would love to road bike but am one afraid of getting hit by a car. Two I know no one who does it and number three those bikes are expensive.

12. I am running a 5K on March 7th even if it kills me

13. I have always wanted to go on one of those Outward Bound adventures.

14. My favorite food is macaroni and cheese.

15. I have an orange swim cap.

16. I love my nephew he is the greatest!!!!

17. I have contacts and wear them occasionally but like my glasses more. Glasses are good for hiding dark circles when you don’t wear makeup.

18. My goal is to read 52 books this year. I am on number 5.

19. My mom is my hero.

20. If I had to chose a career other than nursing I would chose to be a police officer.

21. I want a Iphone of Blackberry but can’t justify it.

22. I have never moved. I was brought home to the house I live in now. Although, I have moved bedrooms.

23. I have my belly buttons pierced but think I am outgrowing it. I will soon remove it.

24. I have always wanted to see the Rockefeller Tree and go to NYC during Christmas.

25. I will be single this February 14th Happy Singles Awareness Day 🙂


Out of Funk

February 8, 2009

Today was awesome. I slept in till 11 and then made the most of the beautiful day God gave me. Can you say sunny warm and in the high 60’s. I did what gives me joy and hung out with a 8.5 year old boy. I better say the .5 since it is so important to him. Remember those days? We went downtown and to the park. It was a great stress relief. Life through a child is so awesome.

I figured out why I was in a bit of a funk last night. For those who know me, my nephew is my life. I would die for him and I mean it. Not just one of those who say they would. Most know he had a liver transplant in April of 2005 and has done pretty well. Well due to illness before hand school/learning was not on our top priority list. So he has some special needs. It hurts so bad to see him struggle and to see him bring home bad grades. I just have visions of his future and want it to be bright. He deserves it because he has been through so much. The book “In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day” by Mark Batterson offered me some solace yesterday. Maybe it can help you out also. From the book it says

                God has a 360degree perspective on everthing. He considers every contigency. He sees all the way around everything- every issue, every person, every experience, every problem. Most of us see a very narrow view of reality.

So basically God has got this!!! I need to sit back, relax and remember how far he has come. Remember when he could not run without getting short of breath. Remember the awesome gift of life he has been given, a new liver. Remember that he has learned to read when we never thought he would. Now I know I will have to remind myself that God has got this many more times but I trust my God.


In a Funk Tonight

February 7, 2009

I said it. I am in a funk tonight. Just sitting here listening to music on my IPOD. When I am in a funk I tend to go for the country, slow songs and worship songs. I am excited that the weather is going to be warmer this weekend. I need to get out of the house and outside. I am thinking a park and some vitamin D may do me some good. Work has been tough the past few days. To keep it short so many things beyond my control that caused trouble. Stress. In good news I am feeling better and did not wake up throwing up or with a headache on Thursday night. I think the new natural medications I am taking are doing me good :0  I have an appointment with GI soon so I can get there opinion. So far the HIDA scan costs $2,565.80 and the ultrasound was $996.50 and labs $883.00. Sheesh and I have insurance. Wow, I cant’ wait to see what my part will be. I know I have not met my deductible so far this year, it is only February. This brings me to now know the fear and worry in my patients mind when they are in the hosptial. Healthcare is so expensive but needed. There has to be a better way. I am off to budget and pay bills then off to bed. Night!


Missed Opportunities

February 2, 2009

Missed opportunities. I have been wanting to write about this for a while. Not many people can understand being from a divorced family unless you are from one. This post is about missed opportunities and how divorce makes those opportunities out of reach. I was looking for statistics on divorce and its after effects but could not find what I wanted. To lay it out there, we know that women who get divorced are worse of financially than before. So they are left with less money and kids to raise.

I love my mother. She is my hero. She took care of me  yesterday when I was puking my guts out.  I remember her working 3-5 jobs to make ends meet. She was nice in the divorce, did not fight for much just wanted to get on with life. She always kept us fed and clothed. We got to do most of what our friends did always at her expense. She never got new clothes ect.

The reason I decided on the title of missed opportunities is…. Do you think because someone never had the opportunity to do something they never knew they would enjoy it? For example, she has never vacationed or traveled much. She has never been to many movies or shows. She has never shopped or spent frivolously on herself. This is what makes  her a awesome role model. She works hard and does not complain, always ingenious finding a way to make money. What upsets me is that she never had the opportunity. I know I know many people don’t but it upsets me when someone in my immediate family does not understand. Someone who does not understand  how hard it is to pay the bills each month. Someone who says she has trouble making ends meet but goes on cruises and travels. I just ask for a little bit of understanding that is all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!